Current mood:	balanced
Entry tags:	dr. horrible, fanfic, josh whedon is my master now, original, writing

Writing frustrations, and a moment of (Dr.) Horribleness
I'm recovering from a couple years of writer's block.

I used to write. I wrote fanfic. A lot of fanfic. Enjoyable, but I wanted to write something original, partly because there's always the possiblity, however remote, that it could be published, but also because it would be something totally, utterly from my imagination. So I thought, "Maybe fanfic is sapping my creative urges. I know! I'll stop writing fanfic and all that pent up energy will be channeled into original writing!"

The result of this brilliant plan? Well, at first I sat and fidgeted in front of the computer, trying to write and failing. Then eventually I just stopped fidgeting or even thinking about writing. Once in a while I'd remember how I used to hammer out stories, how I'd get a sentence stuck in my head that HAD to be written or a story that HAD to be told, and I'd feel lost and unhappy because I wanted that feeling to return SO BADLY. Maybe I never wrote for a living, but I always defined myself as a writer. I had an itch to create and to share--even when I was writing crappy Mary Sue fics that I was too shy to share--and when I lost that, when I discovered I COULD lose that and go on living . . . it hurt.

Well, anyway. I just started working on a fanfic a week or two ago and the experience is odd. On the one hand, I'm really, thoroughly enjoying the creation process. On the other hand, I can tell I'm woefully out of practice. I'm having to think about things that would have just fallen into place before . . . sentence structure, which point of view to cast a scene from, word choice . . . That's frustrating. I hope I find my stride again. My greatest fear is that I'll never regain the ability I had.

Enough hand-wringing, onto topic number two! I found Dr. Horrible's Singalong Blog through dextradawn's LJ. If you haven't seen it, I ask you, nay, I BEG YOU to watch it, for it is glorious and hilarious and the tunes are catchy. ("With my freeze ray . . .") I also snagged a Dr. Horrible icon:



Thank you, Dextra!

The last installment of the Singalong Blog is tomorrow. CAN'T WAIT!!!